I traded like a fucking moron today. I should’ve held my FNGD position and fucked off — but no I had to fall into sand traps and fight all day to just achieve LOWER LOWS. When I am cold like this, I buy when I should sell and I sell when I should buy. I do the opposite of what works and sometimes, being aware of this curse, I attempt to do the opposite of the opposite, but that seems to end up bad too.
In the end, it makes most sense, if I am being honest, to just buy a bunch of shit and sort it out the next trading day. I closed long and hedged with 20% UVIX. For this to work, all I require is WW3.
Perhaps news of a Russian MIG shot down in Kaliningrad, or maybe China will get involved by sinking an aircraft carrier or two. Bottom line: I need this shit to happen by Monday.
Either way, I will sell and start all over again — attempt to regain my balls. I am +1.5% for July and the month is young enough for me to really do a lot in either direction. I must admit to feeling flustered by today, since it was an ATYPTICAL day for me. Nevertheless, I press on and carry about my life with sincere hopes of catastrophe and doom.