Two months are now in the books for 2015. Thus far it’s been a been an ok stretch, but I still feel a little out of sorts to be honest. A little apprehensive, a little depressed, a little anxious, impatient, nervous, etc. The market is right for what I had forecasted last year, but my actions are still hit or miss. I let the market get to me last year, and I haven’t quite gotten past it.
Confidence in trading is hard to come by. I’ve always had it and I let that get clouded last year with some of the difficult stretches I went through. The drawdowns I’m always able to repair, but the toll it takes on your mental game is a little more difficult to patch.
For those of you that read my stuff back in 06, I went through a similar situation. From 03-06 I went wild. Went on an incredible run. I got into 06 and every bias I had and every approach I followed went bad during the summer and I took a big hit. I repaired the drawdown in about 3 months, but my mind was rattled. Another trader I was close to had a mental coach (read: therapist) that he recommended and I actually paid her a few visits. I was that desperate.
The opportunities are improving out there, but the mood is shot. I’m in the same boat. The emotional toll that this takes on you is incredibly difficult to manage. You have to try hard not to let this shit have a lasting impact on you. You can’t take it home to see your wife. You can’t let it linger when you go out to play with the kids. You can’t let it take the emotions on the inside and wear them on the outside. Otherwise, this business can literally ruin your life.
I don’t know why I opted to write this today, other than just putting it out there to identify the emotion and work towards repairing it. Once that happens, said emotions won’t get in the way of getting into rhythm with the market.
Looking forward to a nice weekend to clear the mind. See you guys on Monday.
OA
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