With the loss of our friend Matt/ @dffapa /”Captain Morgan” we are all reminded how quickly someone can be gone. As Marc said to me earlier on Twitter “We were just joking around with him a month or so ago?” This is a rough truth to deal with. I, having come from a military family and having been in the Army whilst we are at war, know this feeling far too well. It’s a weird feeling, their is a numbness, as the human psyche is not fully prepared to rationalize such an event, with it’s overload of emotions, and we are not prepared to handle the influx. I don’t think it gets easier, but it can get more constructive. Instead of being dark depressed assholes, we need to look at the good times and realize nothing is forever.
I’ve lost so many friends, and it always seems to be the good ones. Even the selfish fuckers who took their own life were far to good for this world. This kind of stuff has really taken it’s toll on me in the past few years, and I have often found myself in the darkest of holes. For those who have gone, they would not want us to be sad. I believe Matt would say “Cheer up dude! There’s Malbec to drink, and dogs to hug!” We loved to talk dogs, working out, food, and booze, among a myriad of other topics. I guess the thing that makes it the hardest is the fact that you walk around and you see these fuckers “swipin’ their EBT’s,” reproducing out of control, or otherwise being worthless. It sucks not having “blinders on” like the majority of the population, and makes it much harder when a great one is lost. Will most of us be remembered in 100 years, probably not, but in the meantime we can take the good times we’ve had with friends and family, both alive, and who’ve come and gone, to remind us there is good in the world, and as long as we keep them in our hearts they are never truly gone.
Pull that landing gear up bro and stay in the sky.
5 Responses to A Note on Loss, RIP Bro
Cheers to that!
He was an awesome guy and I thank you for writing this out. His family will appreciate the kind sentiment.
Not sure what demons he was battling but I had a great admiration for the guy and was fascinated with his life/career.
Very sad to see this happen.
Nice post. Having lost my Mom, little brother and beloved doggie within a few year span, I understand the dark hole. But it’s important to not get sucked down it.
I talked to Captain Morgan about dogs and Florida. He is the 3rd person I’ve lost that I’ve been friends with on twitter. It’s quite sad.
And makes you think how you really need to enjoy life because you just never know.
Nice tribute, and I know how sad a time it is.