FOOLED INTO EGREGIOUS LOSSES

Let me just say this to you: fuck days like this. I bore witness to my portfolio withering away, slowly but surely, without respite and without reason. It was akin to what dying must feel like, executng triage to it to no avail and keeping PINNED TO THE FUCKING LOWS like a loser.

There was a pivot point in all this and I will show you on my fucking chart.

(takes a deep breath)

I was already down before my fucking sojourn to my ornate toilet because I had some bad moves yesterday. I was hedged via $TZA at 11% of assets and got bored with it and covered the hedge BEFORE my bathroom excursion, mostly because there were so many wondrous SHIT STOCKS gapping higher by 500%, like $NUZE. I was looking at what could get next, making me 500%, and at the same time they fucking RUGGED the market beneath me, taking down high beta stocks and anything with a modicum of trend in it 2% off the highs. In other words, if you bought in earlier this morning, you left completely bogged.

I’ve had sessions like this before and normally my timing is always off, so instead of hedging into the pits of hell I decided to hold firm and do nothing. That complacency earned me another 30 fucking bips to the downside, capping off my session from hell off by 1.3%.

On a macro level, I am still +4% for October and FLAT for the week. As much as I feel like I am down 50% YTD right now, I am in line with the fucking indices, a feeling that I do not enjoy.

I realize the markets showed UP today for the broader indices and you fucking buy and hold robots cannot commiserate with what I am ranting about right now; but trust me it was baaaaad.

I ended fully long with merely a ceremonial $UVIX position of 2.8% weight, because I like to use it as a sacrificial lamb to pave the way for my egregious gains to come.

Know this, no matter how down I appear and bedraggled by the market, The Fly will always come back with spear in hand, vengeance in his heart, breaking the faces of his enemies en route back to recourd highs.